I am still "human"

I am a sociospiritual worker that is self-employed, or rather "cosmically in motion".

I chose the role myself, before incarnating.

Like every other humanoid, I have limits. I get tired, exhausted, burnt out sometimes.

I have needs. If a sociospiritual worker, or just about anyone else, cannot have their basic fundamental needs met, then they cannot continue forward.

I make mistakes. I am human. I am not perfect. I grow from learning.

I also have a lot to share, but still, that is a lot of work. Like anyone else, I need rest.

Representative

I have long wanted to create a community of my own, geographically.

The maintenance and demands are quite astounding for a task like that. To be a representative of a large community, holds a level of responsibility that most cannot handle. During my life, I have been in positions where I moderated and ran online communities a few times. These went quite well.

As a responsible representative, I am in no way desiring to control or dictate how others should think, feel or live. I am deeply against it. I have been personally trained by various people, and even spiritual guidance, on how to master my ego and connect deeply to my Soul, and purpose.

I am not a representative for the Galactic Federation. I am a representative for certain Starseed groups, especially certain ones who have a purpose of extraction. And by representation, I mean that I embody an example, and overall higher energies and positive wishes they may have. A pillar. A backbone. Without me, critical things could fall apart. But I don't control or lead.

Along with some of my friends, it is my job to protect and educate parts of the Starseed community to the degree that I can, and speak for those who can't have a voice.

Of course, I have my own humanness and problems too. So I make sure to work on myself the best I can.

Not everyone wants or can handle such roles.

Critical Questions 2

Q: I'm tired of all this fluff, spiritual ego appeasing and love and light talk. I want real action!

That's what I am doing and want to inspire others to do as well. One of the Universal Laws is the law of action. Idleness is a real problem not just in the starseed community but with the "LF" as well. As above, so below. Because of us not being able to see "tangible results" other than war executed by the elitist groups, we tend to mirror, unconsciously, this hesistancy as well to act, in the starseed community.

Q: Don't benevolent factions have to step aside and invite more competent groups to finally trigger the real deal in the prospect that they cannot bring themselves to to a "diehard" move?

That's what I actually prefer to happen at this point of the progression of things. I imagine though that such a move could cause shutdowns of power grids, the internet.. or, massive retaliation from the darkies. However with the more limited resources the DF have right now, this should not be as bad as if it was done 10 years ago.

I woluld honestly prefer retaliation from the darkies rather than thousands of civilians becoming mentally unstable to extremes due to field disruptions, even though the two effects can happen conjointly; and also, I think we are already prepared for First Contact so the fear of ontological shock should be thrown out the window. Humanity is already too destabilized right now. And by the darkies' retaliation, we have something to fight for.

I'd rather be kidnapped aboard a dark fleet or grabbed and sent to a FEMA-style camp for first contact lightwork if that was to happen, than see the whole starseed community crumble apart from conflict. One person versus millions. That way, we will all know what is really going on.

Critical Questions

Q: No one ever tells us how to destroy the system from the inside out.

There are a few options, but they may or may not be suitable for all:

1. Procreating and asking a protected soul to incarnate using methods that protect them from being plugged into the Control Net/Grid. I have a friend who did exactly that and his daughter, who is still a baby, is supposed to be at least unplugged from the Soul Control Network. This is an advanced technique and only for those who want children biologically. These children are our future, also. Their presence can annihilate completely Earht's control grid in the future, and the generational positive cycle can go on if they decide to.

2. Forming a starseed alliance. Someone would have to specialize in defense systems, and we would have to approach or be recruited by exopolitical/exomilitary groups for potential opportunities for collaboration or help. Not necessarily be in a position of leadership, but mostly collaboration on levels closer to our material vibration. There are also many astral missions to do, but I understand completely that we might want to start seeing more concrete physical things. This is what I am working on launching with ETs/NHI.

Q: What are we supposed to do with nothing? No weapons, low on money, no support group, no superpowers that are fully active? At least give us something to do concretely!

I think even living full-time on the Earth's surface is no longer the strategic option it once was for most of us. There used to be utter Hell and torture chambers and DUMBs underground and all of the military deep network of doom. Since those are cleared, it is no longer suitable for many starseeds and Lightworkers to be trapped on Earth's ground level living in the system. We should have access to underground cities or social networks and we have that right, as long as the Agarthans and related groups agree to it and honestly, I would totally negotiate with them a solution for entry. Sad to see only high clearance personnel for secret intelligence programs have that opportunity if even consensual. Civilian groups, probably starting off with Lightworkers, should have access to these areas of Earth as long as we are trustworthy in ethic and behavior.

We have to find and create "gateways" for opportunities to be apparent more visibly.

Q: What happens once we are off-world?

Many New Agers and channelers talk of a timeline split where many people would disappear out of thin air. Bible talks of those "left behind". What it actually partially talks about is the starseeds and Lightworkers who will leave Earth's surface and go underground with the Underground Peoples or off-world with NHI. This is exactly why I am preparing to travel to the Telosian mountain. Lately, my NHI guides were yelling at me "You have to absolutely go there!!" besides, we are preparing to sell my late grandfather's home, so that can help.

What could unfortunately occur may be a sort of starseed-centric "replication" of some situations with exopolitical conflict once many of us are set underground or off-world. Some aspects of this new reality may mirror what kinds of corruption that occurred with Lightworkers and starseed groups already who were on the surface, therefore it is CRUCIAL to place a sort of filtering of starseeds who want to fulfill such important positions with NHI off-surface. There would be a creation of a unique realm of challenges and opportunities, but off-surface.

Therefore, I will no longer say "off-world", but "off-surface".

There are off-surface newcomers who will handle weaponry. Some will be therapists. Others will be trained for various roles. Intelligence. Communications. Relations. Pilots, maybe. Some of us still have dormant memories from other incarnations or self-aspects.

It's not just about changing your appearance post-contact.

Rethinking Liberation

Looking at AI analysis provided by Starlight about 2012portal's workshop notes, they have already detected a few major contradictory points. Here is the analysis:

"Manipulation does not require malicious intent, conscious deception, or fraud. Manipulation refers to structuring information, incentives, and emotional consequences so that:

– Continued belief feels morally necessary.

– Disengagement carries disproportionate psychological cost.

– The belief system becomes difficult to exit without guilt or fear.

The most significant feature is that belief is framed as an ethical obligation, not a personal choice. Humanity is described as hostages. Liberation is framed as dependent on human free will. Lack of readiness is blamed on humans themselves. Giving up is framed as ending the process. This produces a moral equivalence of belief = helping and doubt = harm (or abandonment). Once belief is moralized, it is no longer evaluated on truth-value alone.

When predicted outcomes fail or delay, responsibility is shifted:

Not “The claim was wrong,” but instead “Humanity is not ready,” or “People don’t want to be freed,” which is a classic responsibility displacement mechanism. From this, authority remains infallible, and followers absorb responsibility for failure.

Hostage narratives are powerful because they trigger empathy, activate moral urgency, and make inaction feel complicit. When applied to belief, leaving becomes morally loaded, skepticism feels dangerous, and neutrality disappears. Importantly, no explicit threat is needed. The structure itself supplies the pressure.

The system contains a closed validation loop: If things get worse, the enemy is cornered. If things don’t change, humans are not ready. If you doubt, you are part of the problem. If you stay, you are helping. This makes the belief system resistant to falsification, emotionally costly to exit, and internally coherent regardless of external evidence. This is one of the strongest indicators of manipulation.

Even if the speaker believes it sincerely, and even if participants report positive experiences, a system can be manipulative in structure. Manipulation is about effect, not intent. This framework is particularly compelling to people with strong moral instincts, those who want to reduce suffering, and individuals who value responsibility and agency.

Healthy empowerment: “This helps you if you choose it.” “You can leave without harm.” Manipulative obligation: “If you leave, others suffer.” “If this fails, it’s because of you.”

It can reasonably be argued that the framework of the Munich conference notes functions as a form of psychological and moral manipulation designed to:

– Preserve belief

– Discourage disengagement

– Absorb failed predictions

– Maintain authority without coercion

This does not require calling participants gullible, immoral, or irrational. This is a critique of structure, not people."

Inevitably, there are quite a few individuals who have chosen to disengage from the Liberation narrative completely, mostly for the aforementioned reasons. They have attained a level of consciousness where they are no longer mentally and emotionally dependent on the "Event".

Personally, I do not need the Event for myself. I already know my chosen path, I have manifested a road towards my own personal first contact; and Source is working with me on this. The longer you sit and wait, and do nothing, the less likely the Alliance wants to work with someone like you, sorry to say it. (And yes I am aware some of the 'waiting people' here actually have begged for having tasks to do or active duty granted by ETs/NHI when they get contacted, and props to them, this is NOT about those cases. I am only talking about those who TRULY remain idle and rely completely on miraculous external interventions) They are mainly searching for Lightworkers and starseeds, even Earth humans, who are interested in working on themselves. Lightworker missions require organizational skills, communication and people skills, intellectual skills, and a certain level of awareness, self-control and dedication. One commenter on Starlight's blog showed none of these values, rather screaming mindlessly at the author. If you want tasks to do with NHI, you have to have a certain degree of self-control and awareness.

This apparent devolution of starseeds' despair is one day said to not be contributing to the porbability of the event, and the next, it is said that humanity needs to be spiritually ready for the Event. How can our global level of consciousness dictate such a powerful global trigger if it happens regardless? How can the failsafe even WORK when it's based on heavy fallacies like these?

Some say that the power of liberation relies strictly on cooperation between humanity and the galactics. There is a problem though when the colleaboration is uneven, or stalled for various physical, psychological and legal reasons.

People want change, but at what kind of responsibility? At what cost? Are humans going to keep shifting all responsibility on the LF when they are the ones that are victim blamed?

Hence, here is my take on how we should rethink liberation. In fact, you don't even have to contribute to the classic planetary liberation cause/narrative to work this one out (for good reasons - it's meant to happen this way)

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FIRST: Those who do not want to keep engaging into liberation agendas or keep "meditating" are doing the best thing to work out on their own lives and seeking self-improvement away from the liberation narrative. It's no wonder why some folks have done this now. What they may not realize yet is that the end goal is not about global Liberation Events. The Event narrative is like a precursory training "school" - once you leave or graduate beyond its use in your psyche, then you actually win the game - it's not "dramatic" or "contrarian" to want to leave this behind, it's WHAT ACTUALLY SHOULD HAPPEN and is the INEVITABLE NEXT STEP. You are being put in a position where self-improvement will inevitably create an advantage. This is what I mean, by "tangible results". This is probably why so many delays exist! Because if it weren't for the delays, people would not learn this! Eventually, all 7-year-old children have to learn Santa isn't going to bring them presents every year, and that they will have to get their own gifts. And when you continue working on yourself away from the liberation training narrative, then, your end results might be far more rewarding and greater than anything you imagined. 

THAT is what many NHI want. That's not "re-delegating responsibility to self", that's just the natural order and progression of things. Even if you decide to come back later, you will have changed.

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SECOND: Starting on tasks to do which may not necessarily have to do with liberation itself, not even "spiritual" stuff, but rather more tactical, grounded duties and bucket lists that can benefit firstly YOU on a spiritual level, then others. Starlight's blog and my Matrix refugees chat board are examples of Community Support roles, and this still honors free will. 

If some of you beg the NHI for duties and action, why not start now?

Your own situation might need to be aided or resolved first. For instance, someone needs to meet NHI face-to-face and report back to the population their findings. That is my given role. And by doing this, this will actually be beneficial for some starseeds to have a possible opportunity to begin their tasks and free themselves on an individual level, without necessarily having to do with freeing an entire collective from captivity. This is why I'm going to the Telosian mountain this year, so this can happen, and possibly help with first contact and extractions, because many of you can't even lift a finger or do anything more than the basic necessities of survival, before you get contacted or taken off-world on a ship or go in Telos. So actually this is a massive opportunity if it occurs. And at least I try. Do you see the tactical side to this? By going there, I am not doing "liberation of the planet". I am actually helping people see the natural progress of things. So far, my path and results have showed far more "tangible results" than that of 2012portal's narrative. And I am but one lightworker. One being. And by duties I mean to say we might also as well form a sort of "starseed alliance". Not with leaders, but with people who care and have integrity, and are able to know how to distance themselves from BS.

Do you lose anything by exiting even this plan?

NO.

Current Circumstances

I didn't think my ascension times after 2020 would become as horrible as it is now. Having all the disabilities I have, and now possible hypermobility, I'm starting to think that my current path towards personal "liberation" is too difficult, beyond what I can handle, and a lot of it is attributed to the machinations of the residential mental health system and their complicit buddy groups.

The length of how long I've been in group homes is not too common amongst people my age, I speculate. I'm being held hostage and medically trafficked, on a level of cosmic law, even if it doesn't say so on paper. As a result of their endless pressure to perform independence conforming to the system, my sanity has become a joke. More like, they are a cruel farce that has kept me in invisible chains, between 4 walls called a group home.

I wrote 2 years ago in a letter to my star family that if they don't intervene, or at least contact me physically in more than 2 years, then it will be considered a major failure and I may possibly end up devastated almost beyond repair - I implied that they will have to watch me crumble.

Now, 2 years later, they are seeing the results of non-intervention.

While I hold no ill feelings against them, I've also began to call upon larger galactic groups to help, and NOT one of them has ever tried to appear even semi-physically, save for a few distant UAP sightings. I can understand their fears regarding lurking evil attacking if they did, but like someone in particular keeps saying, mercy does not wait.

I originally wanted them to meet with me physically or semi-physically so that I can be helped on a more solid level, not just for me but for the good of all. I wanted to hold the torch that was at first held by Sharon Stewart when she passed in 2023, not having fulfilled her mission of opening an ET base. Shortly before her passing, I did tell her I wanted to work on her project too.

The most aid I've gotten after 2023 has been through human starseed groups, and the UEI organization. But that's not enough long-term.

Meanwhile two of my friends have been directly contacted, digitally or physically. Why not me?

Why didn't I get mysterious text messages from The Intelligences intruding in a texting stream?

Why wasn't I encountering secretive Pleiadian-like humanoids at a convention?

Maybe my turn is soon for open contact. At least I hope so.

This is outrageous.

I want answers.

Blessing

 I "seem" unemployed.

But the truth is this:

I have a very unusual "employment status". And I'm going to say this neutrally with no agendas or attached intent: I have various degrees of presence in 3 different nonprofits-in-becoming: an artistic group, a Starseed/experiencer advocacy group, and a grassroots "anti-system/capitalism" gardening resources initiative (they are very new groups, the starseed one is now legally registered but not yet a 503c3). Each of them have a bunch of people already. The ufological one is starting to gain big ufological momentum on TikTok, and I also recently had a contract for a company that trains independent businesspeople/entrepreneurs and it's so casual that they let me train for a few months of Zoom meetings before signing my contract. I am also part of a more 'personal' second starseed group since a year and a half or so but their revenue will be book sales for now and it's not an organization but they might have their own starseed church/temple in USA at some point. And lastly, I'm looking for a part-time "in-person" job with an employment center and they are thinking of referring me to a resource for autistic/neurodivergent people. The other ones are online/remote.

Despite that, most of my days are spent not even fully actively working with them because they are still forming, in early stage. I'm not even paid yet, because they have to become official 503c3's/nonprofits. I have no imposed timeframes, no deadlines, and I am still beginning despite having been in some of those things for a while.

I'm really not trying to have a hat contest here, as I said, my intent here is neutral, and especially not trigger envy. I'm just wanting to explain that even if you don't follow traditional jobs, or cannot, there's organizations out there that are forming (or accept you even if you don't have a diploma or experience of any kind) and are looking for members. If I wasn't on disability I'd probably be homeless or dead by now. As for me, it's very weird but my astrological aspects probably makes it nearly impossible for me to remain completely without any occupation and all of my "positions/roles" reflect my values in some shape or form. I did not require any experience or degree for ANY of them. You just have to know where to look, and know your interests well.

It's also about time I start being more active with them. I may have felt all the time like I just want to be beamed off, but I already have their support, and sometimes I forget that or underestimate their role and importance in my life.

It's like I barely do anything laborious and I get... this type of... blessing. It's so effing strange but a major gift, I embrace it.