Current Circumstances

I didn't think my ascension times after 2020 would become as horrible as it is now. Having all the disabilities I have, and now possible hypermobility, I'm starting to think that my current path towards personal "liberation" is too difficult, beyond what I can handle, and a lot of it is attributed to the machinations of the residential mental health system and their complicit buddy groups.

The length of how long I've been in group homes is not too common amongst people my age, I speculate. I'm being held hostage and medically trafficked, on a level of cosmic law, even if it doesn't say so on paper. As a result of their endless pressure to perform independence conforming to the system, my sanity has become a joke. More like, they are a cruel farce that has kept me in invisible chains, between 4 walls called a group home.

I wrote 2 years ago in a letter to my star family that if they don't intervene, or at least contact me physically in more than 2 years, then it will be considered a major failure and I may possibly end up devastated almost beyond repair - I implied that they will have to watch me crumble.

Now, 2 years later, they are seeing the results of non-intervention.

While I hold no ill feelings against them, I've also began to call upon larger galactic groups to help, and NOT one of them has ever tried to appear even semi-physically, save for a few distant UAP sightings. I can understand their fears regarding lurking evil attacking if they did, but like someone in particular keeps saying, mercy does not wait.

I originally wanted them to meet with me physically or semi-physically so that I can be helped on a more solid level, not just for me but for the good of all. I wanted to hold the torch that was at first held by Sharon Stewart when she passed in 2023, not having fulfilled her mission of opening an ET base. Shortly before her passing, I did tell her I wanted to work on her project too.

The most aid I've gotten after 2023 has been through human starseed groups, and the UEI organization. But that's not enough long-term.

Meanwhile two of my friends have been directly contacted, digitally or physically. Why not me?

Why didn't I get mysterious text messages from The Intelligences intruding in a texting stream?

Why wasn't I encountering secretive Pleiadian-like humanoids at a convention?

Maybe my turn is soon for open contact. At least I hope so.

This is outrageous.

I want answers.

Blessing

 I "seem" unemployed.

But the truth is this:

I have a very unusual "employment status". And I'm going to say this neutrally with no agendas or attached intent: I have various degrees of presence in 3 different nonprofits-in-becoming: an artistic group, a Starseed/experiencer advocacy group, and a grassroots "anti-system/capitalism" gardening resources initiative (they are very new groups, the starseed one is now legally registered but not yet a 503c3). Each of them have a bunch of people already. The ufological one is starting to gain big ufological momentum on TikTok, and I also recently had a contract for a company that trains independent businesspeople/entrepreneurs and it's so casual that they let me train for a few months of Zoom meetings before signing my contract. I am also part of a more 'personal' second starseed group since a year and a half or so but their revenue will be book sales for now and it's not an organization but they might have their own starseed church/temple in USA at some point. And lastly, I'm looking for a part-time "in-person" job with an employment center and they are thinking of referring me to a resource for autistic/neurodivergent people. The other ones are online/remote.

Despite that, most of my days are spent not even fully actively working with them because they are still forming, in early stage. I'm not even paid yet, because they have to become official 503c3's/nonprofits. I have no imposed timeframes, no deadlines, and I am still beginning despite having been in some of those things for a while.

I'm really not trying to have a hat contest here, as I said, my intent here is neutral, and especially not trigger envy. I'm just wanting to explain that even if you don't follow traditional jobs, or cannot, there's organizations out there that are forming (or accept you even if you don't have a diploma or experience of any kind) and are looking for members. If I wasn't on disability I'd probably be homeless or dead by now. As for me, it's very weird but my astrological aspects probably makes it nearly impossible for me to remain completely without any occupation and all of my "positions/roles" reflect my values in some shape or form. I did not require any experience or degree for ANY of them. You just have to know where to look, and know your interests well.

It's also about time I start being more active with them. I may have felt all the time like I just want to be beamed off, but I already have their support, and sometimes I forget that or underestimate their role and importance in my life.

It's like I barely do anything laborious and I get... this type of... blessing. It's so effing strange but a major gift, I embrace it.

I'm Autistic After All

Was in total conviction that I was being neurologically controlled for years, but then implosion hit me like a truck.. I simply thought I could be like others.

I am not like everyone else, after all.

My recent integration and acceptance of my autism and ADHD is going on gradually.

Spiritual Privilege

Religious freedom concerns all religions and faiths. The same principle applies to non-religious spirituality.

I am more concerned by the 'negative paganization' of original agendas and historical events or figures. Which means, a deliberate deformation and compartmentalization of the true information. Christians call it 'idolatry'. Cargo cults are overlapping with the New Age communities to a large extent.

Medbeds are no exception. The one and only "true" medbed representative, an Australian woman, has been run dry. I bear skepticism regarding her claims, the beings she channels, and her contacts who are all anonymous agents in high places. I am not here to dismiss the validity of her experience in the Secret Space Program. What irks me is how the medbed claims seem to be even worse than Cobra's Event delays - there have been many instances of hypothesizing the medbeds would appear 'in the next weeks', and nothing happened. It is always the flatline of absence of responses or visible results that keep people furious. In contrast, the representative has continuously promulgated self-empowerment methods since her early work.

In one of my older articles, I mentioned how the media has a frustrating habit of using a top-down perspective on whatever it touches. I still think that is true. 

I am also not a fan of Fulford-style 'intel'. Extrapolated, extravagant rumor mills that range from saying that medbed facilities just materialized all over the world, to billions of humans reported to having felt themselves finally unplugged from the 'matrix'. Benjamin himself is not anonymous. But what does he have to gain by sharing such extreme claims about what's going on?

Spiritual privilege is the weaponization of spiritual info and resources from a position of gaining or having a social advantage. Be it authority, power or money. It affects communities. Individuals. Information sources.