Okay so this is a very important update concerning me.
There's a risk I won't move out now. Not 100% but like 50%. I had secured my spot in an apartment in a sublease, but I received disappointing answers from my conservator and social worker. I will hear the formal decision tomorrow.
If they decline my request to be allowed to move out, I don't know what to do but I want to scream at them that they failed me, that the system failed me and that they should have never been in my case.
I think I'm going to resort to drastic measures if they are too adamant on refusing.
They will have told me that I worked my ass off for years and years only for them to never see my potential. There would be no good in continuing to perform and tire myself out, trapped in the system.
Honestly, I think I will just run away for good if that happens. I'll just pack my suitcase and elope, never to look back. No choice. I'd rather be elsewhere than continue living in a group home. I would have to leave behind what I started doing, for self-preservation. I once said I'd rather be homeless than live in the institutional system.
And wait until I get invited or contacted by the Inner Earth peoples or ETs while the system collapses around me.
It feels like I simultaneously both want and don't want it to happen.
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