Realization

I noticed something. Isolation and homesickness go hand in hand for me.

Then people tell me that I am never alone and that I am already "home".
I mean, it makes sense, but there's probably something that would help me recover from this emotional issue better.

And at the bottom of my hierarchy of spiritual needs, there is the sense of life purpose. 
Which I put "being home" or "feeling like home" in that layer...
Like trying to squish in the layer almost a cinder block.
And when this layer is threatened, that's when I shut down or crumble apart the most.

And if I can't form spiritual connections with my soul family on Earth who are incarnated then it compromises both my life purpose and my connection with "home". That's how connected these layers are.

And then I am forced to be my own best friend, my own home, and form my own purpose. When I felt that I have nothing else, that's what I did. It's like a failsafe, but a very, VERY painful one. Also because we live in a physically limited realm.

Like the worst emotional pain ever, that failsafe, to me. That's like if I am denied actualizing my vitality and personhood and I risk becoming a doomed recluse. Like, risking it all. At the same time, it was necessary for me to learn to embody what I really needed.

Because if I don't, I risk becoming stuck in esoteric waiting games. Forever.

Demons aren't universally evil

Demons are what we call infernal forces.

Not too long ago, someone who channels accused my astral partner of being a demon. This is not the first time this occured.

Here's one thing that people do not understand; an archon isn't the same as a demonic being.

Demon comes from daemon, which means a spirit in-between deities and humans. It's technically just a spirit. It can also mean genius.

Even Satan and Lucifer aren't what we believe they are. Lucifer is reformed. He reincarnated as a different being.

Some demons are actually guardians and keepers of a dimensional plane that is closer to Hell, but not quite.

Same goes with succubi and incubi. Every species in the cosmos has a duality. The real key to discernment is yourself.

Clarifications

Okay, let me adress the information about doomsday and the rapture.

My perspective based on my intuition, telepathic link with my ET family and everything I gathered is that the 3 Days of Darkness and other related prophecies, especially the Biblical Revelation, are simply ancient distorted narratives meant to prevent humanity from allowing the realization of First Contact in a safe and smooth way because they wanted to keep humans down into a mentality where they can manifest an invasion scenario, adding classic doomsday layers. I think the whole doomsday thing is an inversion of an event or series of events that are actually supposed to occur that would actually BENEFIT us: First Contact. 

They painted it as doomsday and negative because they don't want it to happen as this would break the matrix. The reason why is that there is or was a major matrix control net that regulates most everything on Earth, and many people are forced to incarnate through looping technology. (not all souls but many) and suffice to say what could actually happen that the Bible and all these prophecies speak of is really just a minor (but very impactful) series of events that have their own timing, nothing that big (at first, until it pipelines into public contact). I'm saying this because I have an agreement with my guides to help activate the early stages of private first contact and have been doing so and preparing since 2020. (all my life directed towards this, I'm not saying that for nothing) Also, I'm not even in communications with the Galactic Federation of Worlds, this isn't even my job or role.

I have solid evidence that my work and the whole private contact process are extremely feared by the dark forces. I think that's one of their biggest fears since it is the first thing that finally triggers the full gateway towards a full "Contact Event". Because of what I am practicing, they burned my Lightworker friend's apartment down to ashes, and before that they tried to k!ll my mother 3 times via the same way, car accidents when she was in a taxi cab. There is even a news article on the fire on the internet. And every time I try to visit that Lightworker friend something always fucks up the process and we can't meet, why? Because she was originally meant to assist me in the contact process. So I met other people that have so far been less targeted.

The problem is that I can never stop my work no matter the consequences. It is an absolutely necessary process for humanity. It's already public information, what I do.

Now because of the mind programming that Revelation has done, the collective thoughts of religious people prevent me from having a smoothest and safest process to finally meet benevolent ETs.

You will not lose anything. You will not lose anyone. Let people like me and others (both human and alien) handle the first contact damage control. I am just a civilian with no job or governmental position still. They are already doing that to me and people in the same sphere, big time. Just work on yourself and practice your spiritual development. You don't have to worry about anything. If there's anyone they should try to fuck over, it's me and my associated collective. Not regular folks. Now I am more protected both by humans and aliens, I have a strong support network on both sides and I feel blessed.

The Abrahamic texts we all know of, depict the Rapture about undertaking humans who have been reborn as Christians into the skies, or heavenly realms,while the others are left behind to rot and be tormented by vile creatures and archons. again, this is a total inversion or distortion of First Contact.

No one should be left behind regarding first contact. Especially not to rot. How many times I, a contact activator and representative have to emphasize repeatedly this statement? First Contact is NOT salvation. It is actually an OPPORTUNITY. A DOOR. An AGREEMENT. Nothing else. I'm just a frontline representative. And we all have our own lives.

Those of you who have a soul agreement of extraction, if you are denied extraction for the moment you also will not left behind. The cause is that you'll be able to meet ETs still via certain first contact programs, you might even be able to use a Medbed to assist in your healing (and not to "heal" you on its own) and I will keep lobbying and advocating for us. 

Someone named Nadalee is even registering a nonprofit called United Experiencers Initiative!

However, I can't do this all by myself. That's why I need your help by your own spiritual, mental, emotional and physical preparation and self-education. That way it will happen in a much better way than if none of us are ready at all!

My temporary extraction goals and motives

Motives:

✅ Starting my mission

✅ Want to change my appearance drastically, such as, soul transfer into a new avatar

Social aspects:

✅ I have informed individuals that would be potentially affected by my departure (at least my friends)

✅ I have family, friends or other persons who would worry if I vanished, with or without explanation (and have to come up with plans to reduce backlash)

Location:

✅ Anywhere suitable

✅ Off- and on-world back-and-forth

Goals:

✅ Start a new life

✅ Work with ETs and/or the Galactic Federation of Worlds

✅ Healing

Permanent Extraction Form

This is a form I made for those who wish to be extracted from Earth permanently based on everything I gathered.

Feel free to reply in the comments, or not reply at all.

Motives:

☐ I want to leave in order to leave my old life behind

☐ I want to leave because I have truly nothing to gain - even spiritually, by staying on Earth for much longer

☐ I want to leave because I have nothing much left in my life

☐ I want to change my appearance drastically, such as, soul transfer into a new avatar

Social aspects:

☐ I have informed individuals that would be potentially affected by my departure

☐ I have family, friends or other persons who would worry if I vanished, with or without explanation

☐ I am worried about my own departure or do not feel ready yet

☐ My extraction is a life project of its own

Location:

☐ On another planet or world

☐ Underground (amongst Telosians, Agarthans, etc)

☐ Off- and on-world back-and-forth

Goals:

☐ Start a new life

☐ Work with ETs and/or the Galactic Federation of Worlds

☐ Do my own things

☐ Healing

☐ Adoption into an extraterrestrial/intraterrestrial family or household

☐ Other

Issues of transition and potential plan/solutions

Once I "change clothes", which is pretty much a spiritual decision I made for practical and cathartic reasons, who will be there to oversee my transition and make sure I have resources to continue living safely?

How do I make my mother and social workers calm down after they find out the old me has vanished and that they won't recognize me? I'll stay away from them for a while. I will just probably send agents, officers or spokespersons to speak for my situation to them. But also, there's one catch; my current legal identity may have to be declared legally declared missing or deceased if it's permanent. Or something similar. If I stay on Earth part time under a new meat suit, under a new name and birth certificate, and have my old self pronounced missing/dead, then I can't go back. I hate it so much that this may emotionally hurt those I know who are not in the know, at least temporarily, but, my "mission" is more important. It's my escape card - the golden ticket. Sorry. My mother has already imagined the scenario of me vanishing with aliens and this really would make her depressed. But I will come back, soon after, just with a new face.

I want them to be prepared for this kind of situation, but I will perhaps be under a temporary NDA which also affects the spokespeople's ability to inform my mother and social workers.

I think I might get a schedule as to when I transition. So I have no choice but to make it arrive as a surprise, but also inform others that I will be away for a while - and then, the news come up.

So, I want to have two avatars I can transfer back and forth to, ideally.

See how carefully I gotta plan all this stuff?

So here is my possible solution: I'll basically have to inform someone that I'll be going through a 'study program' for a while, or visit friends for several weeks maybe, without saying too much! And that way, they will not have to declare me dead/missing to others since when my NDA expires, we'll be able to reveal what happened.

Then a bunch of people will just come to my group home, pick up my belongings and leave, ending the chapter of my group homes there. I will not be with them because I will be in another meat suit.

If I can't get my procedure the first time, this is understandable.

If it happens this way, then, I will have to be protected. The transition will be a major life event for me. Like a rebirth. I can't miss it.

New flesh means new protocol.

Thankfully some of my friends are in the know.

Grumpy Again

Maybe it's just me but I feel like I'm starting to see through the illusions of the whole disclosure-collapse-ascension overlap spheres. Even something such as suggesting me to find like-minded folks and create a community garden just rubs me the wrong way. I mean, I know it's a good idea, but.. idk, I feel something cosmic is 'off' even if it's a good intent. I'm not someone's mutual aid libertarian toy. I don't want to participate into a Twitter echo chamber.

It's like anytime I want to get a sense of belonging into a community of sorts, I get disappointed, or almost mentally poisoned from the activity in there.

Many communities are based on belief systems and ideologies and the well is saturated with those.

So it's like... what am I signing myself up for?

"Oh, a new brand shiny community! Let's ruin it by either infiltration or the human stupidity factor! And then see it split or fall apart!"

Communities need to sustain themselves on a main value or spiritual message that repeats itself throuhgout time. It is their food.

Because we can't even fucking function in harmony without laws and rules.

Otherwise, anomie prevails. Because it's how we tend to be after living our whole lives obliged to conform, and one day you're told that all this means nothing, and a purge happens, because you get ontological shock.

Also, a community that is centered around one person or following a group is not a community to me. It's a fandom, a horde. There's no care for treating each other right, they all just look up to their idols.

That's what I feel is awful about humanity. We don't see ourselves, or barely, as a true 'community'. We tend to see ourselves as slaves to a higher power, that we have to overturn for some of us. We're a fandom, even when we don't want to be deep down. Just.. a 'collective', that happens to have qualities and a soul.